||[May. 21st, 2009|10:42 am]
so... yesterday sean and I talked in the morning|
and we've decided that we're going on a break. Actually, I stupidly asked him if he wanted to break up, he said no, but then laid out that he needs to do some self-improvement right now. He wants to start acting like the 19 year old college student, with a job, and his shit straight. He needs to stop being selfish and be a good brother, and friend, and boyfriend. He sayd that he isn't fair to me; he does things I have a big problem with, and he explodes at me anytime I ask him to be rational about it. I never noticed these things, but he doesn't thinnk its fair for me to have to go through this.
i just want him back. He says he still loves me, he just wants to improve himself for everyone in his life and himself. I just wish he didn't have to leave me for it. He says we're still best friends, and that we can get back together when he's better, but i don't want this.
i dunno, maybe he's going to turn into the sean I'm suppose dto be with, instead of the one he is right now. i sure hope so. :(